May 17, 2012

My First Mothers Day

Obviously this year Mother's Day was a little different because, well, I am a mom for the first time in my life.  I have been thinking a lot about my new role and how my life has changed, with this special day being upon us.  It's hard to find the words to say on what being a mother means, but I will do the best I can.
When I found out I was pregnant with Jacob, both Mike and I could not be happier and more scared at the same time.  At that moment, motherhood started.  I went from being selfish; eating cookie dough and sushi. To being so worried about the little person growing inside me being healthy and getting enough folic acid and DHA.  Once I started getting used to being pregnant, the real role of mothering came into light.  My role in motherhood completely changed the minute they set Jacob on my chest.  It's hard to imagine the love you can feel for your baby.  People always tell you, but it's something you truly cannot grasp until you have that child in your arms. 
Watching him grow over the last 12 weeks has been one of the most amazing things I have witnessed in my life (let's face it, that's saying something).  Some moms have talked about being sad that their baby is getting bigger and older.  To me, it isn't sad at all.  It gives me great joy watching him figure things out and accomplish new milestones.  Every stage he moves out of there will be something I miss, but every stage he moves into there will be something that makes me so happy. 
I have always wondered what happens to women when they become a mom.  Meaning do they get super powers? I always saw my mom doing everything in the world, and I was always wondering "How does she do it?" Well, now that I have filled that role I realize that when you become a mother you one hundred percent gain super powers! You just love your little ones, so much that the going out, sleeping in, having a clean house, or watching a show in one sitting doesn't mean as much anymore. Every fiber in your being wants to make every moment with your child the best moment of their life.  And as tired as I am, I think it is pretty cool to have super powers.

Here are some of the great things I have witnessed Jacob accomplish in the last 12 weeks:
 He learned to use the remote ;0)
He knows who Marky Mark/ Mark Wahlberg is and tries to dress like him.
He can fly.
He has made new friends, even if they do creep him out a bit.

To express how much a mother means, I found this on the Internet.  It said it better than I ever could.

A baby asked God,"They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"
"Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."
At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from earth could be heard and the baby hurriedly asked, "God if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."
"You will simply call her, Mom."


2 comments:

  1. Aww Ash your blog post almost made me cry at work! And to think you were carrying your cat around in the moby a couple of months ago :) Jacob is a great baby and it kind of feels like he has always been around in a way. You and Mikey are great parents (who apparently make very large babies). Thanks for blazing the trail for Matty and I. I can't wait for Jacob's cousin to get here! So many fun times ahead in the future!!! Also did you use a religious quote in this post? Am I gonna see you at church on Sundays? Love you!

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  2. Aww, beautiful! See, I knew you'd find a perfect way to say it!

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